Monday, March 30, 2009
Doctor visit this morning
Ok so my post last night was to prepare you all in how to deal with me if the doctor today told me the injections weren't working. Well....guess what! They ARE working! He did a sonogram and my left ovary does have a follicle that is ready to release an egg!!! I have to do what's called and HCG shot tomorrow evening which is the hormone that will tell my ovary to release the egg. He said if I don't have my period in two weeks to do a home pregnancy test and call him. Wow! That is going to be the longest two weeks ever!
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Interesting post
I found this on another blog that I read. The girl has PCOS also. I thought I would share it because she says it and explains it way better than I can.
"How to be Good Friends with an Infertile
I have quite a few ‘normal’ friends (i.e. not infertile) who read this blog. (I am so far out the closet it is frightening, even my brother and ex flirts read this blog). Imagine how confusing most of the lingo must be for them. Anyhow. Back to the point of this post. One of those friends said to me “I wish you would write about how to be a good friend to an infertile person”. Which is really sweet of her and shows she has already passed one of the requirements. So I started thinking about writing a post on this and realized what a hard task this is. How do you become a Good Friend to an Infertile?Firstly, I have to say that this being a Good Friend to an Infertile is not an easy job at all. It is a job with fluid parameters, a thankless job sometimes and one where it might appear that no matter how hard you try, you never seem to get it right. There are times when you will be extremely busy and the job is very demanding. There are other times where you will benched, forced to sit on the outside looking in. There is not often any logic in this change of demand. Be aware of the volatility of work pressure when applying for this job. It is not a decision to be taken lightly.Secondly, there is not a universal job description, and worst of all, your job duties will change over time. There is not a universal job description because Infertiles come in different flavors. True, one can categorize these flavors to some extent, but variations will always exist. Your eternal optimist / newbie / completely uninvolved infertile doesn’t need too much in the way of special friendship; they believe the problem is temporary and will get resolved soon. They don’t feel broken, different or an outcast. Your longer term / highly involved infertile is a very tricky beast, and is one to be handled with great caution and protective gloves (for you, not her). This person feels alienated from society and carries great pain and angst in their souls. They might not show it all the time, but there is a very sensitive, raw spot in their souls that is easily bruised. Then you get the older timers, who’ve been doing this so long it just becomes part of who they are. These infertiles have gone through the great angst and intense pain of the ‘dark years’ and have come out realizing that while infertility is ****, it is not all consuming. And instead of crying, they laugh. Because infertility is actually a comedy of errors, sometimes.Infertiles tend to move through these stages at different pace. Which makes it very hard being a Good Friend to an Infertile, because the type of friendship involved is so different at each stage. It is very very hard being a Good Friend to someone stuck in the dark stage of infertility. It is a very painful place for an infertile to be. There is no hope, just a great deep dark sense of despair. You feel totally alienated from the rest of the world and you are consumed by your situation. Every thing hurts, and every thing has the power to hurt you. Your world shrinks to the world of infertility and you fight tooth and nail to protect the fragile hold you have on sanity. The best advice I can give to a Good Friend at this stage is to offer friendship and support, from a distance. Say things like “I am here for you if you want to talk, or not talk, or drink, or swear, or shop. But if you don’t want to that’s perfectly ok. I’ll be here waiting for you when YOU are ready to come out the cave”. If you can bare it, hang in there, your friendship should return to some semblance of its previous form once your Infertile has worked her way through her dark despair. It has nothing to do with you or you ability to friend, it has every thing to do with her coping with the horrible reality of her situation.Being a Good Friend to the eternal optimist or the good-humored veteran is a lot easier, with these few survival tips.
1. Good Friends never judge. Remember that unless you’ve walked in the person’s shoes, you can’t say “well I would never….do IVF/terminate a pg/spend so much money on ART etc” To be honest, who likes judgmental people any way.
2. Good Friends will educate themselves about what their Infertile is going through. HUGE proviso: see point 3 before putting any thing into action. Read up about infertility so that you get a high-level understanding of the intricacies involved. Know little things like eggs are retrieved, then fertilized and they become embryos. Then the embryos are put back. Just small things so that when your infertile does share some of her world with you, you will understand. I think this shows commitment to the friendship.
3. However. Do not willy nilly offer advice, or hot off the press latest research about a fantastic new procedure that is sure to work. Remember the stuff they write about in your local woman’s magazine is stuff that your Infertile did in Infertility 101. Been there, failed that. ICSI is not a new procedure, I promise. And yes, we have heard of taking cough syrup to increase cervical mucous. Oh, and for my Aunt, yes I have heard of lying with my legs in the air after having sex. Unfortunately, I have PCO and don’t ovulate so I could be lying with my legs in the air doing bicycle movements till the cows come home and all the sperm are going to do is mill around confused asking where the **** the egg is, bemoaning the fact that this has been a useless trip out and they might as well have had a wank. Which goes back to Point 2. Educate yourself about your friend’s diagnosis so that you can avoid offering pointless advice. And please, what ever you do, never, ever be so stupid as to say “just relax”. Would you say to a cancer patient “just relax”? Would you say to someone who can’t see “just relax”? Of course you wouldn’t. Plus you have to know that “just relaxing” will not change the medical diagnosis that is causing your friends infertility. Because of course you’ve done enough reading to carry on an intelligent conversation, if your Infertile decides to engage you in one.
4. Platitudes. Never ever offer platitudes. This is a totally selfish act any way because all platitudes do is make you feel better and the Infertile feel worse. Saying “maybe you are not meant to have children” is an incredibly stupid thing to say. You wouldn’t say to a diabetic “maybe you weren’t meant to have insulin etc”. Infertility is a medical condition. Not some factor in the universe’s bigger plan for the Infertile. Similar to “its God will”. How the **** do you know? You have a direct connection or what? How about “are you sure you want kids?” lovingly looking at your own screaming kids. No dear, I am spending thousands and enduring physical, emotional and mental anguish just because I am obscenely stupid. Or “you can have mine”. Now that’s an incredibly stupid thing to say. What kind of mother are you to give her kids away? Oh you were only joking? What was the funny part? That I don’t have my own kids? Sorry, but I am not getting the joke? Call me stupid. In addition, please don’t tell me about your friend/cousin/co-worker who got pg naturally after 8 years of trying. It doesn’t make me feel better, it depresses me. Good for her. It’s got nothing to do with my situation. ( This is my favorite part)
5. The tricky one. Announcing pregnancies / baby showers / births and other kid things. The best advice I can give here is trust the Infertile to know what she can or can’t handle. Don’t hide things from her, but respect it when she says to you “I don’t think I am going to be able to handle that”. Your Infertile knows when her good days and bad days are, and what she can or can’t handle. But do invite her, give her the choice of saying no. And then respect her to know that sometimes she needs to protect her own fragile soul more than she needs to fulfill social obligations.
6. The level of involvement. Infertiles differ in the level of involvement they engage their Good Friends in. Some, like me, are pretty open about the whole thing. Every Friend and their Mother knows when I am going in for ER, ET or whatever. Other people prefer to keep their infertility private. Find out what your Infertile prefers and operate at the level she feels comfortable with.
7. Which brings to me to my final point. If you don’t know how to act, ask. I love that my friends ask me how I want them to act around me. They also know that if they ask the question “how is it going with your treatment” I will either tell them or I will say “irritating, I don’t want to talk about it now”. They totally respect that and don’t push. I have great friends.There have been many articles written on the web about what to say and not to say to an Infertile, how the family should act etc. I wont go into those. If you are a Good Friend you will have done a little surfing and read those things anyway. Besides, this post is already way too long.To end off, if you decide to accept the job of Good Friend to an Infertile, I applaud you. Because it is not an easy job. It really isn’t. As I have said, it’s a pretty thankless job and one in which your job description is so fluid that what is required today is wrong tomorrow. "
"How to be Good Friends with an Infertile
I have quite a few ‘normal’ friends (i.e. not infertile) who read this blog. (I am so far out the closet it is frightening, even my brother and ex flirts read this blog). Imagine how confusing most of the lingo must be for them. Anyhow. Back to the point of this post. One of those friends said to me “I wish you would write about how to be a good friend to an infertile person”. Which is really sweet of her and shows she has already passed one of the requirements. So I started thinking about writing a post on this and realized what a hard task this is. How do you become a Good Friend to an Infertile?Firstly, I have to say that this being a Good Friend to an Infertile is not an easy job at all. It is a job with fluid parameters, a thankless job sometimes and one where it might appear that no matter how hard you try, you never seem to get it right. There are times when you will be extremely busy and the job is very demanding. There are other times where you will benched, forced to sit on the outside looking in. There is not often any logic in this change of demand. Be aware of the volatility of work pressure when applying for this job. It is not a decision to be taken lightly.Secondly, there is not a universal job description, and worst of all, your job duties will change over time. There is not a universal job description because Infertiles come in different flavors. True, one can categorize these flavors to some extent, but variations will always exist. Your eternal optimist / newbie / completely uninvolved infertile doesn’t need too much in the way of special friendship; they believe the problem is temporary and will get resolved soon. They don’t feel broken, different or an outcast. Your longer term / highly involved infertile is a very tricky beast, and is one to be handled with great caution and protective gloves (for you, not her). This person feels alienated from society and carries great pain and angst in their souls. They might not show it all the time, but there is a very sensitive, raw spot in their souls that is easily bruised. Then you get the older timers, who’ve been doing this so long it just becomes part of who they are. These infertiles have gone through the great angst and intense pain of the ‘dark years’ and have come out realizing that while infertility is ****, it is not all consuming. And instead of crying, they laugh. Because infertility is actually a comedy of errors, sometimes.Infertiles tend to move through these stages at different pace. Which makes it very hard being a Good Friend to an Infertile, because the type of friendship involved is so different at each stage. It is very very hard being a Good Friend to someone stuck in the dark stage of infertility. It is a very painful place for an infertile to be. There is no hope, just a great deep dark sense of despair. You feel totally alienated from the rest of the world and you are consumed by your situation. Every thing hurts, and every thing has the power to hurt you. Your world shrinks to the world of infertility and you fight tooth and nail to protect the fragile hold you have on sanity. The best advice I can give to a Good Friend at this stage is to offer friendship and support, from a distance. Say things like “I am here for you if you want to talk, or not talk, or drink, or swear, or shop. But if you don’t want to that’s perfectly ok. I’ll be here waiting for you when YOU are ready to come out the cave”. If you can bare it, hang in there, your friendship should return to some semblance of its previous form once your Infertile has worked her way through her dark despair. It has nothing to do with you or you ability to friend, it has every thing to do with her coping with the horrible reality of her situation.Being a Good Friend to the eternal optimist or the good-humored veteran is a lot easier, with these few survival tips.
1. Good Friends never judge. Remember that unless you’ve walked in the person’s shoes, you can’t say “well I would never….do IVF/terminate a pg/spend so much money on ART etc” To be honest, who likes judgmental people any way.
2. Good Friends will educate themselves about what their Infertile is going through. HUGE proviso: see point 3 before putting any thing into action. Read up about infertility so that you get a high-level understanding of the intricacies involved. Know little things like eggs are retrieved, then fertilized and they become embryos. Then the embryos are put back. Just small things so that when your infertile does share some of her world with you, you will understand. I think this shows commitment to the friendship.
3. However. Do not willy nilly offer advice, or hot off the press latest research about a fantastic new procedure that is sure to work. Remember the stuff they write about in your local woman’s magazine is stuff that your Infertile did in Infertility 101. Been there, failed that. ICSI is not a new procedure, I promise. And yes, we have heard of taking cough syrup to increase cervical mucous. Oh, and for my Aunt, yes I have heard of lying with my legs in the air after having sex. Unfortunately, I have PCO and don’t ovulate so I could be lying with my legs in the air doing bicycle movements till the cows come home and all the sperm are going to do is mill around confused asking where the **** the egg is, bemoaning the fact that this has been a useless trip out and they might as well have had a wank. Which goes back to Point 2. Educate yourself about your friend’s diagnosis so that you can avoid offering pointless advice. And please, what ever you do, never, ever be so stupid as to say “just relax”. Would you say to a cancer patient “just relax”? Would you say to someone who can’t see “just relax”? Of course you wouldn’t. Plus you have to know that “just relaxing” will not change the medical diagnosis that is causing your friends infertility. Because of course you’ve done enough reading to carry on an intelligent conversation, if your Infertile decides to engage you in one.
4. Platitudes. Never ever offer platitudes. This is a totally selfish act any way because all platitudes do is make you feel better and the Infertile feel worse. Saying “maybe you are not meant to have children” is an incredibly stupid thing to say. You wouldn’t say to a diabetic “maybe you weren’t meant to have insulin etc”. Infertility is a medical condition. Not some factor in the universe’s bigger plan for the Infertile. Similar to “its God will”. How the **** do you know? You have a direct connection or what? How about “are you sure you want kids?” lovingly looking at your own screaming kids. No dear, I am spending thousands and enduring physical, emotional and mental anguish just because I am obscenely stupid. Or “you can have mine”. Now that’s an incredibly stupid thing to say. What kind of mother are you to give her kids away? Oh you were only joking? What was the funny part? That I don’t have my own kids? Sorry, but I am not getting the joke? Call me stupid. In addition, please don’t tell me about your friend/cousin/co-worker who got pg naturally after 8 years of trying. It doesn’t make me feel better, it depresses me. Good for her. It’s got nothing to do with my situation. ( This is my favorite part)
5. The tricky one. Announcing pregnancies / baby showers / births and other kid things. The best advice I can give here is trust the Infertile to know what she can or can’t handle. Don’t hide things from her, but respect it when she says to you “I don’t think I am going to be able to handle that”. Your Infertile knows when her good days and bad days are, and what she can or can’t handle. But do invite her, give her the choice of saying no. And then respect her to know that sometimes she needs to protect her own fragile soul more than she needs to fulfill social obligations.
6. The level of involvement. Infertiles differ in the level of involvement they engage their Good Friends in. Some, like me, are pretty open about the whole thing. Every Friend and their Mother knows when I am going in for ER, ET or whatever. Other people prefer to keep their infertility private. Find out what your Infertile prefers and operate at the level she feels comfortable with.
7. Which brings to me to my final point. If you don’t know how to act, ask. I love that my friends ask me how I want them to act around me. They also know that if they ask the question “how is it going with your treatment” I will either tell them or I will say “irritating, I don’t want to talk about it now”. They totally respect that and don’t push. I have great friends.There have been many articles written on the web about what to say and not to say to an Infertile, how the family should act etc. I wont go into those. If you are a Good Friend you will have done a little surfing and read those things anyway. Besides, this post is already way too long.To end off, if you decide to accept the job of Good Friend to an Infertile, I applaud you. Because it is not an easy job. It really isn’t. As I have said, it’s a pretty thankless job and one in which your job description is so fluid that what is required today is wrong tomorrow. "
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Jason's job interview
As most of you know Jason's current job is really sucking it up right now. They send him home by about 11am everyday because there is not enough work to keep them busy. He has been looking for a new job and has had a couple of small interviews. I say small because it was one of those things where he goes in to fill out an application and they talk to him right then. Anyway, he had a job interview today at a company called Plumbing RX. They are interviewing for someone to come in there and help them get organized. He said they are a bunch of plumbers that have done a crappy job of running the office and they need someone to do that for them. They are offering him $4 more an hour than he is getting paid right now! Jason said he thinks it went well and he emphasized to the guy multiple times that he has done this before and he can help them. The guy told him he has two more interviews next week and that he should hear from him by Wednesday. Please pray, dance, stand on your head, whatever it is that works for you to help him get this job. I really think he would be good at it and it would be good for him. Also of course, we could use the extra money!
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Hanging on to hope...
Well I have been using the Clearblue Easy fertility monitor. Every morning the first thing I do is pee on a stick...lol. Well for the last week it has been at low fertility, which it should have been, but then this morning it went to HIGH fertility!!! There is one more step up which is peak fertility which is supposed to be the actual day of ovulation so hopefully it will go up to that next but this is a step in the right direction!
I have had a rough day today. I found out two co-workers just found out they are pregnant and there are two others that are due to deliver in the next few weeks. Plus, my sister and another friend are due this summer! Whatever they are drinking or breathing or whatever I want some!
This little bit of extra good news is getting me through the day though. :-)
I have had a rough day today. I found out two co-workers just found out they are pregnant and there are two others that are due to deliver in the next few weeks. Plus, my sister and another friend are due this summer! Whatever they are drinking or breathing or whatever I want some!
This little bit of extra good news is getting me through the day though. :-)
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Just jabbering...
When I first heard that I would be doing Clomid AND the Menopur injections I was afraid that I was going to have some crazy mood swings. So far, I haven't really, no more than normal anyway. I did notice that one of the side effects on the Menopur is dizziness, which I get on a normal basis anyway so that is nothing new to me. I have noticed if I am sitting down not moving everyone once in a while the room starting to spin a little but its nothing I can't handle.
The injections aren't bad at all. The hardest part is actually mixing the diluent with the powder and then getting it all in the syringe. The needle that you administer it with is maybe an inch long so its really not a big deal. The first one I did I was a little nervous about sticking myself but now its not hard. I only have to do them three times. Tonight will be my last one then I will go back to the doctor on the 30th and he said he will do another sonogram. I am not exactly sure what that will show but I guess I will find out.
When I first found out I would be doing all this I was really positive and hopeful that it was going to work and it's not that I'm not now it's just that I really want it to and I am nervous that I am not doing something right when it comes to the injections or I am not taking the Clomid pills at the right time. I don't know. I am very nervous about this and I REALLY want it to work! The time is going by really slowly right now and I am very impatient! I just know that it could get worse before it gets better money wise with all these treatments and I really don't want it to!
The injections aren't bad at all. The hardest part is actually mixing the diluent with the powder and then getting it all in the syringe. The needle that you administer it with is maybe an inch long so its really not a big deal. The first one I did I was a little nervous about sticking myself but now its not hard. I only have to do them three times. Tonight will be my last one then I will go back to the doctor on the 30th and he said he will do another sonogram. I am not exactly sure what that will show but I guess I will find out.
When I first found out I would be doing all this I was really positive and hopeful that it was going to work and it's not that I'm not now it's just that I really want it to and I am nervous that I am not doing something right when it comes to the injections or I am not taking the Clomid pills at the right time. I don't know. I am very nervous about this and I REALLY want it to work! The time is going by really slowly right now and I am very impatient! I just know that it could get worse before it gets better money wise with all these treatments and I really don't want it to!
Friday, March 20, 2009
YAY!!
I just got back from the doctor. It went really well. I am happy with the news. He said my ovaries look good. There are no cysts. He gave me the prescription for the Clomid and the injections which are called Menopur. The nurse showed me how to do the injections. They are just into my stomach and seem relatively easy. I am supposed to start them tonight. He sent me across the street from his office to Target's pharmacy because he said a lot of places don't carry the Menopur but he knew they did so I went over there and got my prescriptions and now I am back at work. I am in a great mood! Its beautiful outside, I heard what I wanted to hear from the doctor, I even got to talk to Addie Waddie on the phone and it seems to be slow here at work so its more of a relaxed setting instead of stressful and ITS FRIDAY!
Keep those fingers and toes crossed that these injections work! It seems to have worked so far!
Keep those fingers and toes crossed that these injections work! It seems to have worked so far!
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Its getting better
I am finally starting to feel better. No fever today. I still have the weird hangy ball thing tickling my tonsils and causing me to cough and/or gag but everything else seems considerably better.
I called the doctor this morning (which was a very interesting phone call since I gag or cough after every 3 words) and made an appointment for my sonogram. I go in at 8:45 on Friday morning. I hope everyone still has all their fingers, toes, and whatever else crossed!
I called the doctor this morning (which was a very interesting phone call since I gag or cough after every 3 words) and made an appointment for my sonogram. I go in at 8:45 on Friday morning. I hope everyone still has all their fingers, toes, and whatever else crossed!
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
The past three days have SUCKED!
So Thursday night I was up most of the night with a bad cough. I thought since it was about to be the weekend I decided I would go to the doctor Friday to get some antibiotics or something so I wouldn't get worse over the weekend. He said I had an upper respiratory infection. Well that plan failed. Saturday was about like Friday just coughing and lots of congestion. Sunday I went to church and by the time I got home I was dying. I had fever and felt like I had been hit by a truck. I got home and went straight to bed. I slept on and off and just felt like complete crap. Monday I woke up and still felt horrible. I was running 101 fever. I called the doctor's office and they told me to come back in but they couldn't get me in until 3. I took Advil and it helped keep my fever down for a while. I went to the doctor and he determined that I now also had strep. he said my tonsils are so swollen that they are touching each other. So now he has given me more antibiotics and wants me to take them 4 times a day instead of 2 times. After I got home from the doctor my fever went back up to 101.5. I took some Advil and it would not go down. So because I was so miserable I took more Advil but it still didn't phase it, my fever was actually still slowly going up. I finally gave up and got into bed. With all the coughing and stuff I was still doing I took some Tylenol PM to help me sleep and I guess that along with the Advil finally broke my fever and I woke up in a pool of sweat. GROSS! Anyway, I woke up again this morning with 100.8 fever which was better than it was. I got it to go down with Advil and I don't think I have had any more since. Now I am experiencing the craziest thing. You know that little hangy ball thing in the back of your throat, its called your uvula, well my tonsils are so swollen that if I try to talk or a lean my head just right it touches my tonsils and makes me gag. Its the craziest thing. I told Jason I never knew I could choke on my own tonsils....lol. So anyway, today has been a little better and I can finally see some improvement so hopefully I am almost done with this crap.
On a different note, I also started today so I should be going in for my sonogram on Thursday or Friday. I will update after I am done there.
On a different note, I also started today so I should be going in for my sonogram on Thursday or Friday. I will update after I am done there.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
My sister is having a BOY!
Now wouldn't it be nice for him to have a cousin his age to play with? :-)
Monday, March 9, 2009
A few thoughts
For some reason I am more hopeful with this next process than I have been with the rest. Maybe its because we actually did surgery and made a real change and not just with drugs. Maybe its because this is something new and supposed to be more likely to work. I am not sure what it is. It quite possibly could just be that I am tired of feeling sorry for myself and it doesn't help matters any so I have decided to stop being negative and have a positive outlook. Who knows, but whatever makes me feel better right? :-)
I have 3 more pills to take and then I will be on my way to starting. I will probably start this weekend and go to the doctor Monday or Tuesday next week and get the show on the road. Everyone keep your fingers, toes, eyes, or whatever crossed!
I have 3 more pills to take and then I will be on my way to starting. I will probably start this weekend and go to the doctor Monday or Tuesday next week and get the show on the road. Everyone keep your fingers, toes, eyes, or whatever crossed!
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Doctor's appt
So I just got back from the fertility doctor. Just as I expected he gave me Provera to make me have a period. I will go back to him on the third day of my period so he can do a sonogram and see what my ovaries are up to. He said if everything looks good and there appears to be a regular size follicle trying to release an egg he will then give me Clomid PLUS injections. He said the injections will boost the probability of the Clomid working. Once I do that I will go back on the 13th day of my cycle (I have never had to count so closely) for another sonogram. That's it for now. Keep your fingers crossed!
Monday, March 2, 2009
Going back!
I am going back to the fertility doctor on Wednesday at 11am. I have not had a period on my own so I assume they will just give me something to make me and then we will start down whatever road they recommend. I will update after the appointment to let everyone know what we decide.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Waiting two weeks...
So I just got back from the doctor and he suggested that we wait a couple of weeks and see if my body is going to do what its supposed to. It hasn't been long enough since the surgery to know if I am going to ovulate on my own or not so we are going to wait and see if I have a period without inducing it with drugs. Keep your fingers crossed!
P.S.
Forgot to mention he told me my pathology results of the cyst and no signs of cancer or anything like that. Just FYI.
P.S.
Forgot to mention he told me my pathology results of the cyst and no signs of cancer or anything like that. Just FYI.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Update
Nothing new to report really. I am waiting to get my Flexible Spending Account debit card from work before I go any farther. Hopefully that will be soon and then I will go back to the fertility doctor. I just didn't want anyone to think I have fallen off the planet. I will post again as soon as there is more information :-)
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
I am still alive
I am alive. The surgery went fine. All the information I was given was given to me while I was still in a very groggy anesthesia state so I am not sure if I remember it all but what I do remember is that he was able to remove the cyst. He said that the cyst was blocking part of my fallopian tube so there may be some damage to it but he doesn't think so. He did ovarian drilling also so hopefully that will help me ovulate too. He took pictures of all this they are kind of icky looking to me but I could scan them and put them on here if anyone is interested in seeing them. My ovaries look like they have been burned with a cigarette which is where he did the holes. Its pretty crazy looking. Anyway, I am doing ok. I am very sore but with the help of hydrocodone and ibuprofen I can tolerate it. My incisions are very small. There are three of them and they are maybe a quarter of an inch long. So I think once my insides recover from their traumatic event I will be ok. I appreciate everyone checking on me and I will keep you posted.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Surgery is tomorrow...
My surgery is tomorrow at 7:30am at North Hills Hospital in North Richland Hills. Hopefully I will be home about noon. Everyone keep your fingers crossed that this works!
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Maybe it will happen this time...
I went to the new OBGYN yesterday. He asked me about all the things I have tried with the other doctors just so that he knew what was going on. He said he could remove the cyst laproscopically like my other OBGYN told me. We discussed it and he is also going to do the ovarian drilling (See below). So my surgery, provided the hospital doesn't want $2000 right away, should be Monday at North Hills Hospital. I'll let everyone know how it goes.
******Laparoscopic ovarian drilling is a surgical treatment that can trigger ovulation in women with polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS). Electrocautery or a laser is used to destroy parts of the ovaries.
This surgery is not commonly used. But it can be an option for women who are still not ovulating after losing weight and trying fertility medicines.
Ovarian drilling is usually done through a small incision (laparoscopy), with general anesthesia. The surgeon makes a small cut (incision) in the abdomen at the belly button. The surgeon then places a tube to inflate the abdomen with a small amount of carbon dioxide gas so that he or she can insert the viewing instrument (laparoscope) without damage to the internal organs. The surgeon looks through the laparoscope at the internal organs. Surgical instruments may be inserted through the same incision or other small incisions in the pelvic area.
This surgery is not commonly used. But it can be an option for women who are still not ovulating after losing weight and trying fertility medicines.
Ovarian drilling is usually done through a small incision (laparoscopy), with general anesthesia. The surgeon makes a small cut (incision) in the abdomen at the belly button. The surgeon then places a tube to inflate the abdomen with a small amount of carbon dioxide gas so that he or she can insert the viewing instrument (laparoscope) without damage to the internal organs. The surgeon looks through the laparoscope at the internal organs. Surgical instruments may be inserted through the same incision or other small incisions in the pelvic area.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Ok so...
all of my close female friends except one are now pregnant. Hopefully, someday, I will get my turn too.
Update: Went back to the fertility doctor on the 16th. Cyst had gotten larger, he told me to go see my OBGYN to see about getting it removed. I called my OBGYN from my car in the parking lot and they got me right in. I went in to see him we scheduled surgery for 12/31.
The hospital called to let me know how much I had to pay. For some crazy reason they want my full $2000 deductible up front. NOT happening! How many people do you know that can fork over that much money at once? So, I spoke to the lady that scheduled me at the doctor's office and she said that all the hospitals they use do that. Well, I have had back surgery and wrist surgery in the last 3 years and no one has ever asked me for my full deductible up front. So, I decided that was my sign or cue to find another doctor, so I cancelled the surgery. Melinda recommended her doctor to me so I have made an appointment to go see him on January 13th. Hopefully, he will get me in soon to have the cyst removed and I will become a baby making machine!.....LOL....I realize that is not going to happen but its a nice thought. I think the plan is to have the cyst removed then I will go back to the RE and he will probably try the clomid again and then move on to the shots if that doesn't work. Time will tell I guess....
Update: Went back to the fertility doctor on the 16th. Cyst had gotten larger, he told me to go see my OBGYN to see about getting it removed. I called my OBGYN from my car in the parking lot and they got me right in. I went in to see him we scheduled surgery for 12/31.
The hospital called to let me know how much I had to pay. For some crazy reason they want my full $2000 deductible up front. NOT happening! How many people do you know that can fork over that much money at once? So, I spoke to the lady that scheduled me at the doctor's office and she said that all the hospitals they use do that. Well, I have had back surgery and wrist surgery in the last 3 years and no one has ever asked me for my full deductible up front. So, I decided that was my sign or cue to find another doctor, so I cancelled the surgery. Melinda recommended her doctor to me so I have made an appointment to go see him on January 13th. Hopefully, he will get me in soon to have the cyst removed and I will become a baby making machine!.....LOL....I realize that is not going to happen but its a nice thought. I think the plan is to have the cyst removed then I will go back to the RE and he will probably try the clomid again and then move on to the shots if that doesn't work. Time will tell I guess....
Monday, December 15, 2008
Back to the doctor
I will go in for another sonogram on my ovaries on Wednesday at 9:30. I'll update as soon as I can.
Friday, December 12, 2008
Friday, November 7, 2008
Back on track
I don't remember if I mentioned in my last post that I found my doctor's email address on their office website. I emailed him and told him what the other doctor had said and told him that I just needed to know if this is what he thought also. I told him that I didn't think that this was the direction he was headed because if it was the birth control is pointless. When I got in to work this morning I had a response from him. He said that he did want to see if the cyst went down and that if it did he would try me on Clomid again but we can't do that until the cyst goes down and he told me he would be in the office today so if I could I should come in and let him do the sonogram. So I called as soon as they opened and when I say "as soon as they opened" I mean they opened at 8:00 and I called at 8:02...lol. She got me in at 10 and I had my sonogram done. He said that the cyst has gone down some just not enough to do the Clomid. He wants me to try another month of birth control and he said we could potentially do this for 6 months but if it hasn't gone down by the he would refer me to another doctor to have it laproscopically removed. He said he will be able to tell in the next month or so if there is any chance of this working in 6 months otherwise we won't do it that long and he will send me to the other doctor. I asked him if this would be the same as the ovary drilling I have read about where they go in and drill holes in the ovaries to help release eggs. He said no that is different but it would be a good idea to have it done all at the same time. So anyway, I am going to do the birth control again and see what happens next month. The question of the day is.....WHY didn't the other doctor say that?!?! My opinion is that he just flat out didn't give a damn. He didn't bother to read my chart to see what was going on. Then today I go in and the nurse remembers seeing me the day before but looks and there is NOTHING in my chart about me seeing the other doctor so there is nothing in there about what he told me. WHAT A FREAKIN MORON! So I told the receptionist to put an alert on my account (I know they can because they use our software) that I do NOT want to EVER be seen by Dr. Le again. I try really hard not to be a racist or prejudice but all I can say about that idiot is he is a stupid chink!
Well that's it for now. I am back on my original track just a slight derailment. We will see what it looks like again next month! Let's just hope I don't bleed to death by then!....LOL
Well that's it for now. I am back on my original track just a slight derailment. We will see what it looks like again next month! Let's just hope I don't bleed to death by then!....LOL
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Read With Caution...
I think I am calm enough now to say this without two many bad words slipping but I make no promises.
Today I went to the doctor. The doctor I saw was not my normal doctor because he was out on vacation. He came in, looked at my chart, and then asked me if I had been given anything to make me ovulate. I told him my OBGYN had given me clomid but my hormone levels never changed enough for them to know for sure if I ovulated or not. He then proceeded to ask me if I could afford $600 to $700 a month for injections. I told him not right away. So then he said there was nothing more he could do for me! He said I could try losing weight and then my body may start ovulating on its own. I was so mad and upset I didn't ask questions and I barely even listened to him from that point on. He did give me a prescription for progesterone which will keep me regular as far as my periods go but probably won't help me ovulate.
I left and cried most of the way from the doctor's office back to work. All this sounded like to me was that he was telling me I was too poor and too fat to help. Then I started thinking, the doctor I have been seeing seemed to have many more options he was thinking of trying. I think this doctor just didn't want to deal with it. He didn't even do the sonogram which is the whole reason I was there! So this afternoon I looked at their website and got my normal doctors email address and emailed and told him everything that happened and everything the other doctor said and asked him to let me know if this is really my only option because he led me to believe that there were other things we could try.
So now I feel like I am back at step one because The sonogram wasn't done so we don't know if the cyst on my ovary went down or not.
WHAT A BUNCH OF FREAKIN CRAP!
Today I went to the doctor. The doctor I saw was not my normal doctor because he was out on vacation. He came in, looked at my chart, and then asked me if I had been given anything to make me ovulate. I told him my OBGYN had given me clomid but my hormone levels never changed enough for them to know for sure if I ovulated or not. He then proceeded to ask me if I could afford $600 to $700 a month for injections. I told him not right away. So then he said there was nothing more he could do for me! He said I could try losing weight and then my body may start ovulating on its own. I was so mad and upset I didn't ask questions and I barely even listened to him from that point on. He did give me a prescription for progesterone which will keep me regular as far as my periods go but probably won't help me ovulate.
I left and cried most of the way from the doctor's office back to work. All this sounded like to me was that he was telling me I was too poor and too fat to help. Then I started thinking, the doctor I have been seeing seemed to have many more options he was thinking of trying. I think this doctor just didn't want to deal with it. He didn't even do the sonogram which is the whole reason I was there! So this afternoon I looked at their website and got my normal doctors email address and emailed and told him everything that happened and everything the other doctor said and asked him to let me know if this is really my only option because he led me to believe that there were other things we could try.
So now I feel like I am back at step one because The sonogram wasn't done so we don't know if the cyst on my ovary went down or not.
WHAT A BUNCH OF FREAKIN CRAP!
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
The votes are in!
My body is jacked up! Seriously though, I stopped bleeding finally on Wednesday of last week then yesterday evening I realize its back! Today I am back to full flow and I still have 8 pills left of my birth control! I haven't missed a pill or anything. So I called the doctor's office since I am supposed to go in on the third day of my next period and I asked her if I should consider this my period even though I shouldn't even be bleeding or what. She went ahead and scheduled me to come back in on Thursday for a sonogram. She said she isn't sure why I am already bleeding so it wouldn't hurt for the doctor to look and see if the cyst has gone down. I guess we will see on Thursday!
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Nothing new
There isn't much going on at the moment I don't think. I got my car back, got it inspected again and it passed, I have to take it back to the body shop at some point because the driver side door doesn't close right. I can hear air whistling when I drive. I am not overly impressed with that body shop. I thought if I took it to a dealership body shop they would do a better job but not so much. Anyway, thats about it for now. I have a headache. I believe I will go to bed.
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