Saturday, June 13, 2009
So much for that
I started my period today. I am pissed but there is nothing I can do. I am out of money and that's it. I don't know if I will post again for a while. There is just nothing else to say. I will just put my stupid fake happy face on and pretend everything is ok. What else is new? I have become a pro at it.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
What now?
I am at work and just NOT in the mood to do ANYTHING. I just want to go home and go to bed. I have work that needs to get done but I just can't motivate myself. I am in a very blah mood. I don't really care to talk to anyone. Normally I go outside and talk to my boss while she smokes a cigarette and I'm not really even in the mood to do that. I need something exciting to do, something to look forward to at least until this 2ww is up. I might go insane before the two weeks is up! I really need to find something to do! Anyone have any ideas? Its hard to do anything when you don't want to be around anyone but maybe if its exciting I can handle the being around people part just don't expect me to be chipper (I know that's a stretch for me even on a good day...lol) or bouncing off the walls.
Monday, June 1, 2009
The story...
Ok, here we go.
First of all, I slept VERY little last night. I kept dreaming that something went wrong, like I didn't get the collection to the office within 90 minutes or I got it there and they tell me they will have to reschedule me next month because the doctor is out.
So, 7:15, Jason has done his part so I get the cup and place it in its nifty paper bad and head to the doctor's office. I get there and no one is there but I am a little early so I wait. About 8:15 the receptionist shows up, I went inside and she looks at me like I am nuts and asks if she can help me. I told her I needed to drop off my bag. She looked at me again like I am nuts and says "oh you are supposed to be at the Irving office". WHAT?!?!?! I looked at her and as calmly as I could I said "No one ever mentioned Irving to me". She said "I told you that on Friday". I just looked at her and said "no you didn't" and walked out. I didn't have time to argue. The sperm needed to be to the lab in 90 minutes and I was already coming up on 60 minutes and to make it to Irving during rush hour was surely going to take longer than 30 minutes and I had very little gas in my car. I put the address in my GPS and it said I would arrive there at 8:45, THAT IS 90 MINUTES! I step on it and I am crying and ranting and raving and screaming at any car that gets in my way, begging and pleading with them to just get out of my way. I did hit a little traffic but nothing like I expected, THANK GOD! I got on 161 where the speed limit is 70 and I went about 85. I was daring any cop to pull me over. They wouldn't have known what hit them when they got done with me...lol. So I got to the Irving office with about 5 minutes to spare and very very little gas left. I walked in and told her I was supposed to be there at 8 but I was late because no one told me I was supposed to go to Irving so I went to Arlington. I told the receptionist that the collection was pushing its limit really quickly and she said she would get me back ASAP. I sat down and tried to breath deeply. Within about 2 minutes they called me back. I gave her the collection, filled out a form and left. Now I don't have to be back until 10:15. Well my original plan was to go back home and finish getting dressed but now that I am in Irving that plan is shot all to hell. I went to Chevron to get gas, then to McDonalds for some food, and then spent some time wandering around Target. I went back and was pretty early (making up for the lateness from earlier...lol) and went ahead and went in. It didn't take them long to call me back. I went in and did the whole undress from the waste down crap, with the paper sheet over me and waited for the Dr. He didn't leave me waiting long. He came in and said that Jason's sperm count was good (that was a relief). He started the procedure which is pretty much just like a pap smear. After he was done he elevated the chair so that my hips were elevated at a 45 degree angle and told me to lay there for about 15 minutes and then a nurse would come get me. That was interesting. I was just laying practically upside down in an exam room staring at the ceiling. Once I was done the nurse came and let me down...lol. Now I just get to wait another 2 weeks and see what happens. Keep on praying!
First of all, I slept VERY little last night. I kept dreaming that something went wrong, like I didn't get the collection to the office within 90 minutes or I got it there and they tell me they will have to reschedule me next month because the doctor is out.
So, 7:15, Jason has done his part so I get the cup and place it in its nifty paper bad and head to the doctor's office. I get there and no one is there but I am a little early so I wait. About 8:15 the receptionist shows up, I went inside and she looks at me like I am nuts and asks if she can help me. I told her I needed to drop off my bag. She looked at me again like I am nuts and says "oh you are supposed to be at the Irving office". WHAT?!?!?! I looked at her and as calmly as I could I said "No one ever mentioned Irving to me". She said "I told you that on Friday". I just looked at her and said "no you didn't" and walked out. I didn't have time to argue. The sperm needed to be to the lab in 90 minutes and I was already coming up on 60 minutes and to make it to Irving during rush hour was surely going to take longer than 30 minutes and I had very little gas in my car. I put the address in my GPS and it said I would arrive there at 8:45, THAT IS 90 MINUTES! I step on it and I am crying and ranting and raving and screaming at any car that gets in my way, begging and pleading with them to just get out of my way. I did hit a little traffic but nothing like I expected, THANK GOD! I got on 161 where the speed limit is 70 and I went about 85. I was daring any cop to pull me over. They wouldn't have known what hit them when they got done with me...lol. So I got to the Irving office with about 5 minutes to spare and very very little gas left. I walked in and told her I was supposed to be there at 8 but I was late because no one told me I was supposed to go to Irving so I went to Arlington. I told the receptionist that the collection was pushing its limit really quickly and she said she would get me back ASAP. I sat down and tried to breath deeply. Within about 2 minutes they called me back. I gave her the collection, filled out a form and left. Now I don't have to be back until 10:15. Well my original plan was to go back home and finish getting dressed but now that I am in Irving that plan is shot all to hell. I went to Chevron to get gas, then to McDonalds for some food, and then spent some time wandering around Target. I went back and was pretty early (making up for the lateness from earlier...lol) and went ahead and went in. It didn't take them long to call me back. I went in and did the whole undress from the waste down crap, with the paper sheet over me and waited for the Dr. He didn't leave me waiting long. He came in and said that Jason's sperm count was good (that was a relief). He started the procedure which is pretty much just like a pap smear. After he was done he elevated the chair so that my hips were elevated at a 45 degree angle and told me to lay there for about 15 minutes and then a nurse would come get me. That was interesting. I was just laying practically upside down in an exam room staring at the ceiling. Once I was done the nurse came and let me down...lol. Now I just get to wait another 2 weeks and see what happens. Keep on praying!
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