Some thoughts

I haven't posted in a while and I have some things on my mind so I thought I would put a little out there.

I learned of another pregnancy today and while I am thoroughly happy for this person and wish her all the best with her pregnancy its still a bit gut wrenching to me. She was told that she more than likely wouldn't get pregnant without help and they had planned to start fertility treatments this month but that apparently wasn't necessary because she is pregnant already. Don't get me wrong, I handle these things much better these days than I have in the past but there is still that slight knot that forms in my stomach when I hear news like this. You are probably asking yourself "then why aren't they still trying?", well its really expensive. This year I chose to do something for myself and have LASIK done on my eyes. I am very happy with the outcome and am pleased that I made the decision. Jason is still struggling to find a stable job (another topic for another day) and we make it by financially very very carefully. I don't think this is a stable environment to have a baby in right now anyway so we decided we would get things back on level ground and hopefully Jason will have full time work and we will check into the IVF thing at the beginning of next year. I have been told that our insurance will cover IVF after we meet our $2500 deductible but I would like to call and confirm that myself before I get my hopes up. I haven't done it yet because there is no way for us to do it right now anyway so I will call and see what they say when we get closer to time.

So for now I will enjoy what time I get to spend with my wonderful niece and nephews and try to enjoy the peace and quiet in my house when its there.